Panic Won’t Protect the Planet Well

I grew up as a climate change denier. Now I understand we must care for God’s creation and people alike.

Christianity Today April 22, 2024
Illustration by Mallory Rentsch Tlapek / Source Images: Unsplash / Getty

I grew up believing that Earth Day was a liberal holiday. Climate change was a lie, a ploy by leftist political activists to dismantle US economic superiority by undermining domestic energy production and crippling our industries. Humans had a God-given right to have “dominion” (Gen. 1:26) over the earth, I was taught. The natural world was ours to “steward” (Gen. 2:15), which to us meant it could be used as desired to improve the lives of industrious, hard-working families like ours.

Everywhere I turned, I saw this definition of stewardship in action. It was well-intended but, I now think, ill-considered. My home then was the Texas Panhandle, atop the Ogallala Aquifer. The Ogallala is the largest aquifer in the nation, but after decades of High Plains farmers tapping it with abandon, it’s drying up.

These days, I live five hours south of my hometown atop another major geological formation: the Permian Basin, the nation’s most productive oil field and the heart of the US oil and gas industry. Thirteen years ago, I cried when we moved to Midland, Texas, for my husband’s new job with a natural gas company, not wanting my family to be part of an industry I’d come to believe was destroying the earth. Needless to say, by then, I no longer believed climate change was a lie.

I’d spent nearly four years in a small village outside of Beijing where the drainage creek bubbled with dangerously toxic sludge; we’d go days without seeing the sun through the industrial haze; and blowing my nose in the winter would leave me with a tissue blackened with coal dust. I didn’t have to be a climate scientist to conclude that there would be consequences for how humans were treating the earth.

As my views changed in my late 20s, I found a new—yet still evangelical—vocabulary for talking about the planet. Like many other thoughtful Christians eager to disassociate from a history of climate change denial, I traded one extreme for another. Dropping the free-for-all model of stewardship, I instead began espousing an apparently sensible but functionally vague idea that Christians should care for creation.

But in those 13 years, living amid the fossil fuel industry and grappling with the complexities of energy production has changed my perspective again—and this time, not to another extreme. I’ve learned so much from sober-minded industry experts here in Midland, many of whom are faithful Christians. They’ve brought depth and nuance to my thinking about science, creation, and orthodoxy, and they’ve helped me hold in tension the beliefs that climate change is real and that an abrupt transition to green energy would be enormously harmful for vulnerable people here in the US and across the developing world.

For Christians who believe God desires for us to care for his creation and his people, there’s ground between “climate change is fake” and “the earth is on fire,” and we can help lead the way to a more reasonable conversation about energy production and consumption.

It’s easy to see how the conversation got so unreasonable. We’ve traded pragmatic thinking for impassioned rhetoric, mixing apocalypticism and accusations at every turn. Many have come to believe we’re on the verge of catastrophic environmental tipping points, a premise that makes any opposition seem intolerable and any response but sheer panic feel irresponsible.

Climate anxiety has risen to the point that some people are deciding to remain childless or, in a few cases, calling for the “graceful bowing out of humanity.” This is a shockingly anti-human, voluntary extinction movement that, while fringe, has profoundly consequential ideas.

Even more mainstream voices tend to take an absolutist tone. “The science is clear,” the United Nations says: “To avoid the worst impacts of climate change, emissions need to be reduced by almost half by 2030 and reach net-zero by 2050. To achieve this, we need to end our reliance on fossil fuels and invest in alternative sources of energy that are clean, accessible, affordable, sustainable, and reliable.”

The problem is, that kind of drastic solution is not as simple as it sounds. Right now, 60 percent of US electricity is generated by fossil fuels (including the energy charging many electric cars), and 18.6 percent comes from nuclear plants. Our primary alternative electricity sources—like wind and solar—contribute about 21.4 percent of our power, but they’re much less reliable. US emissions won’t be halved in six years unless we have a catastrophic plunge in quality of life.

We also face crippling storage and transmission problems that cannot be wished away. Per Evergreen Action, a climate activism group, over 80 percent of clean energy projects in the US may never be completed. That’s because we don’t have enough transmission lines in our electric grid to move the power they’d generate from production areas to consumers.

At least with transmission, we know the solution, even if we may not be able to implement it quickly enough. Storage is another problem entirely: Though development work is underway, we do not yet have scalable battery solutions that can help make renewables a reliable alternative to fossil fuels. We can collect solar power, but we need enormous battery capacity to even out its distribution across distance as well as seasons and weather patterns.

And on top of all this, our need for energy is only increasing. AI’s appetite for electricity is voracious—utility companies already can’t keep up.

Besides these technical problems there’s a more human concern. “One of the great mistakes is to judge policies and programs by their intentions rather than their results,” the economist Milton Friedman once said, and the real-world risks of an energy policy revolution are serious. Quick transitions like those demanded by the UN demonstrably drive up prices, destabilize geopolitics, and create shortages that hurt the vulnerable more than the prosperous, who can afford to absorb higher costs in service to green ideals.

This is most apparent in the developing world, where, just as here, parents want their kids to learn how to use computers and doctors want hospitals to be able to run ventilators—all of which require electricity. “When looking at underlying indicators of economic poverty, lack of access to energy looms large,” said Scott Tinker, a University of Texas geologist, in a recent article. “The wealthiest nations in the world enjoy the greatest energy security—affordable, available and reliable—and the poorest nations are essentially energy starved.”

Demanding that developing nations go net-zero by 2050 is not only implausible but inequitable and unfair. And that’s not the only way the developed world’s green arrogance hurts the global poor. In her May 2024 cover story for The Atlantic, writer Stephanie McCrummen reports that the Maasai people in Tanzania have been forced off their land in the name of offsetting pollution. “In the past two decades,” she writes, “more than a quarter million Indigenous people have been evicted to make way for ecotourism, carbon-offset schemes, and other activities that fall under the banner of conservation. That figure is expected to soar.”

By moving the manufacturing of cheap consumer goods to countries with lax environmental laws, developed countries export our pollution (and our trash) and camouflage our insatiable appetites with elaborate carbon credit schemes. Then we demand that the global poor economize and clean up their comparatively minimal energy use. We want the speck in their eyes gone by 2050 but have no real intention of addressing the log in our own.

An abrupt energy transition would do domestic damage too. California, which pursues green energy initiatives with gusto, is a good case study here. The state’s energy policies have consumers “paying to model good climate behavior,” in the words of commentator Susan Shelley. The price for a kilowatt hour of residential electricity in California is double that of Texas, and high cost of living is a major reason many Californians are moving out of the state.

It’s even possible for a premature transition to green energy to increase pollution. Germany committed to phasing out nuclear energy to pursue even greener renewables, but when Russia cut off gas exports after invading Ukraine, Germany had to turn back to coal, a far dirtier fuel than nuclear or even natural gas.

And while there are environmental abuses in domestic energy production—chronic flaring, unchecked methane emissions, orphan wells, produced water disposal problems, and more—shutting down US producers, whether directly or by regulating them out of business, will make things worse. Though in need of further reform, domestic energy production is already cleaner than production in much of the rest of the world. It’s better for the environment to drill domestically than to import dirty oil from countries with laxer standards.

For Christians like me—who aren’t policymakers, corporate leaders, scientists, or activists—the global scale of energy policy and climate change is daunting. But if we can disentangle ourselves from both climate change denial and climate “doomerism,” we could understand that our stewardship of the earth is not a carte blanche but a responsibility to God and neighbor. We could be well-positioned to pursue practical, feasible solutions to the world’s energy crisis.

“As I see it, most people’s interaction with God’s created world falls into one of three categories,” said Midland’s mayor, Lori Blong, who owns a privately held oil and gas company with her husband. People think the “earth is something to be served by humanity for the good of nature; or the earth is something to be subjugated and consumed by humanity in shortsighted greed; or the earth is something to be stewarded for the good of humanity and the glory of God.”

“Bible-believing Christians ought not serve creation nor consume creation,” Blong told me. “We must steward it prudently.”

Stewarding in this sense means working to develop cleaner energy alternatives while also understanding the realities of physics and thermodynamics and supply and demand. Abilene Christian University’s work to develop nuclear energy, which is partly funded by Christian donors with roots in the oil and gas industry, is a great example of the innovation that can happen when pragmatic energy experts, motivated by a sense of God-given calling, explore the future of energy development in hopeful, judicious ways.

It also means we ought to explore less technologically splashy but perhaps more impactful ways to mitigate harm. For example, planting trees or developing seagrass fields are both cost-effective ways to capture carbon, but they don’t look as cool in a headline as expensive carbon capture plants or redirecting the sun’s rays. Or consider that 40 percent of energy consumption in the US is tied to heating and cooling buildings; improving insulation is a straightforward way to lower that use which doesn’t require new technology.

Perhaps the most significant thing we can do on an individual level is simply curb our own consumption, living more simply by buying less, using less, disposing less. Jesus warned us to “guard against all kinds of greed; life does not consist in an abundance of possessions” (Luke 12:15). Christian thinkers like Wendell Berry or Paul Kingsnorth articulate challenging and countercultural ideas here that don’t look like merely railing against the fossil fuel industry or smearing tomato soup on Van Gogh paintings.

There may be no better place to root ourselves than in 2 Timothy 1:7: “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind” (NKJV). The dominant climate conversation is full of fear—fear of conspiracies to hurt the American economy as much as fear that human behavior has irrevocably ruined the world.

Both expressions of this “spirit of fear” are far from the truth. Climate change deniers unreasonably act as if fossil fuels are an unlimited resource that can be consumed without consequence, dismissing evidence to the contrary as “liberal,” but doomer fears are leading our leaders to shortsighted, panicky decisions. Taken far enough, these policies will foster energy scarcity, increase global reliance on dirtier energy sources, and destabilize us all with more war, famine, poverty, and human suffering. In the midst of such a frenetic storm, Christians must be a source of peace, reason, and even hope.

Carrie McKean is a West Texas–based writer whose work has appeared in The New York Times, The Atlantic, and Texas Monthly magazine. Find her at carriemckean.com.

Books

New & Noteworthy Fiction

Chosen by Lindsay A. Franklin, freelance editor and author of The Weaver trilogy.

The Weight of Air

Kimberly Duffy (Bethany House)

Duffy delivers her signature blend of colorful settings and fascinating occupations in The Weight of Air. Following the stories of Isabella and Mabel, a mother and daughter separated by difficult circumstances and painful choices, the book propels readers into the world of early-20th-century traveling circuses. There are familiar tropes, like a slow-burn romance and a marriage of convenience. But The Weight of Air shines in tackling challenging themes: depression, abandonment, heart-shattering loss, and aging when one’s identity is entangled with ability and youth. In Isabella, we are given not a glittery, easy-to-love heroine but a complex woman fighting for redemption from past mistakes.

The Rise of the Vicious Princess

C. J. Redwine (Balzer + Bray)

Redwine is known for her rich, dark reimaginings of classic fairy tales, but in The Rise of the Vicious Princess she creates a world all her own. Princess Charis Willowthorn is trained to be ruthless, single-minded, and dutiful toward the kingdom she’s due to inherit. No wilting damsel, she is sharp and skilled, prepared to do anything necessary to protect her kingdom and end the war threatening her people. But Charis’s resolve—and her heart—may be tested beyond what even she can bear. This book is perfect for young-adult fantasy readers searching for stories of substance.

Hummingbird

Natalie Lloyd (Scholastic Press)

Enchanting and utterly charming, Hummingbird is at once an age-appropriate contemporary middle-grade story about the desire for belonging and a surprisingly deep exploration of faith and hope in the context of being “othered.” Lloyd accomplishes both these feats with a heaping side of Southern charm and a sparkly sprinkle of magic on top. Like the author, 12-year-old Olive has osteogenesis imperfecta, a genetic disease that causes bones to break easily. All she wants is to go to public school like the other kids. Her heart-rending and heart-mending journey of self-discovery will delight readers of all ages.

Books

5 Underrated Books on Spiritual Formation

Chosen by Alex Sosler, author of A Short Guide to Spiritual Formation: Finding Life in Truth, Goodness, Beauty, and Community.

Illustration by Elizabeth Kaye / Source Images: Lightstock / Unsplash

The Complete Poetry

George Herbert

Herbert isn’t my favorite poet. (My son is named after W. H. Auden.) For devotional poetry, however, he’s as good as it gets. Herbert was an up-and-coming priest and scholar in the early 1600s, destined for a life of ecclesial or political fame. But he chose obscurity at a rural church so he could devote his life to a slow attention—both to particular people and to his poems, which continue to strengthen and challenge my faith through their beauty.

Gilead

Marilynne Robinson

Gilead is told from the perspective of John Ames, a dying Presbyterian pastor writing a letter to his young son. He wrestles with issues of race, his past, and loss, but his main theme is learning to love and bless his godson, Jack. In a world full of brokenness and ordinariness, Robinson helps me see the mundane “shining like transfiguration.” She helps me pay attention, which is another way to say love.

The Supper of the Lamb: A Culinary Reflection

Robert Farrar Capon

The Supper of the Lamb is a cookbook by an Episcopal priest. Sort of. It’s also a meditation on food, cooking, art, and beauty. Capon reimagines every meal as a sacrament. I love how he describes his qualifications: He’s an amateur, which derives from the Latin word for lover. As amateurs, he writes, we “look the world back to grace.” Spiritual formation is not about mountaintop experiences but everyday occurrences—like preparing and sharing a meal.

Domestic Monastery: Creating a Spiritual Life at Home

Ronald Rolheiser

The premise of this book is that parenting is like running a monastery. That sounds like a bold claim. As a parent of three young kids, I often feel far from monastic peace and serenity. But Rolheiser suggests that raising young children with love and attention can form you as a monastery would. In place of a ringing bell, a child’s “interruption” can call you to prayer. Also, parenting is a place where we learn powerlessness, much as a monastery teaches.

Letters to a Diminished Church: Passionate Arguments for the Relevance of Christian Doctrine

Dorothy L. Sayers

In this essay collection, Sayers helps connect doctrine (what we believe) to our story (the way we live). In her well-known formulation, the dogma is the drama. Covering a range of topics, including theology, women, work, and art, this book is about the whole of life—which is to say it’s about formation. Sayers draws together the relevance of all things, including theology, and helps us see how all of life is formative.

Books
Review

Can a Secularizing Nation Have a Christian Soul?

One of England’s finest writers surveys the past and present of English faith.

Illustration by Abigail Erickson / Source Images: Getty, Wikimedia Commons

In the Western world today, Peter Ackroyd is one of the finest writers of biography, history, and fiction. His most recent project turns attention to the field of religion, setting out to describe what he calls the “spirit and nature of English Christianity” as it has developed over the past 1,400 years.

The English Soul: Faith of a Nation

The English Soul: Faith of a Nation

416 pages

$27.90

The English Soul: Faith of a Nation offers an episodic and biographical account of books, individuals, and communities that have done most to shape this tradition. Consistent with Ackroyd’s gifts, the book crafts superb turns of phrase while approaching its subject with curiosity, generosity, and breadth.

But this book also makes some unexpected moves. The English soul, Ackroyd insists, requires a Christian explanation—for while Jews, Muslims, and adherents of other religions have “contributed” to the country’s religious tradition, their faith and practice have not “characterized” it. “Christianity,” he asserts, “has been the anchoring and defining doctrine of England.”

These are bold words, and contestable ones, not least when measured against England’s secularization over the past 50 years. In most parts of the country, Christian affiliation, even at its most nominal, is dropping fast.

The Church of England might still be established, and the new king might still be its supreme governor, but his episcopal appointments are approved by a Hindu prime minister in a capital city boasting a Muslim mayor and in a culture that treats these religious differences with little more than indifference.

These social changes reframe Ackroyd’s title into a question: Does England still have a Christian soul?

At minimum, Ackroyd’s book capably shows that England has a Christian past. Its chapters range across this terrain, beginning with the Venerable Bede, a seventh- and eighth-century monk known as the “father of English history.”

But it is not always clear what principle has governed the choice of topics and figures. There’s a gap of 700 years between chapter 1, on Bede, and chapter 2, on Julian of Norwich (and only a third of that chapter focuses on the famous mystic). Nearly half the book covers events in the 16th and 17th centuries, leaving just a few chapters apiece for the pre-Reformation church and the centuries leading up to the present day.

Neither are the chapter titles especially illuminating: Bede is discussed under “Religion as History,” the King James Version of the Bible under “Religion as Scripture,” and so on. The focus here is not on religion as practice. In fact, it’s not always clear whether the term religion is pointing to any fixed category at all.

Of course, the flexible meaning of religion presents a difficulty in a book meant to distill an English “soul.” And these references to an English soul are sometimes quite peculiar.

Ackroyd, for instance, describes Julian’s visions as “specific, almost humble” in detail, concluding that “the English soul is mediated through homely images.” This is a curious observation, as it seems to imply that Julian’s vision is ultimately turned in upon herself.

Ackroyd’s conception of “Englishness” is often just as hazy as his conception of religion. The Reformation, we’re told, demonstrated that “ambiguity and compromise were part of the English temper; doctrinal purity was not.” Queen Elizabeth’s proposals to end Protestant-Catholic conflict were “very English … practical rather than speculative,” involving “compromise, and toleration, as well as a fair amount of ambiguity.” The agendas of “compromise and conciliation” that animated the King James Version “might even act as a mirror of Englishness itself, and by extension of the English soul.” The Quaker movement had “an essentially English character,” in that “toleration … has always been the English path.” John and Charles Wesley preferred experience to doctrine and so offered an “outline of the English soul.” And so on.

These generalizations are not always accurate—John Wesley’s hostility toward his Calvinist rivals was certainly theologically informed. And they certainly cannot explain why the book devotes space both to evangelicals and to atheist stalwarts like Richard Dawkins.

This is where proper categorization is essential, because at least since the Reformation, as Ackroyd acknowledges, the English soul has been contested. With the rise of Protestant reform, the “fight for the English soul had become earnest.” One century later, Puritanism offered “an alternative English tradition,” which continues to compete for the English soul.

Ackroyd has particular trouble figuring out evangelicals. With their sometimes fierce commitment to biblical inerrancy and high view of God’s righteousness, it’s hard to imagine them fitting comfortably within the tolerant pragmatism of the book’s “English soul.”

Can evangelicals be English at all? They might be the only growing tradition within the established church today. Does that mean the English soul is dying?

It seems fitting, then, that The English Soul is a book without a conclusion. Its final chapter sketches the careers of revisionist thinkers like John A. T. Robinson, John Hick, and Don Cupitt, hinting that their movements away from “dogma or abstract principle” made them more faithful attendants upon the English soul.

But the lack of a conclusion seems revealing. It’s not merely that Ackroyd’s story of this tradition has yet to reach its finale. Perhaps, in his way of telling, it cannot.

Ackroyd’s book contains some unexpected blunders. It is not true, as he claims, that the 39 Articles of the Church of England rejected the doctrine of hell or that Puritans “doubted whether Christ … intended to create a Church at all.” Moravians did not regard sexual intercourse as a sacramental act. Charles Spurgeon was not the pastor of a “Reformed Baptist church” (a descriptor not used until the mid-20th century).

Blunders and larger hesitations notwithstanding, this survey of English Christian history remains a book by Peter Ackroyd, which means that it is provocative and sometimes baffling but also shrewd, carefully observed, and at its best, brilliant.

Crawford Gribben is a professor of history at Queen’s University Belfast. His books include The Rise and Fall of Christian Ireland.

Books
Review

Criticizing Critical Race Theory—and Its Critics

A new book seems oddly outraged that CRT skeptics take its arguments seriously.

Christianity Today April 22, 2024
Illustration by Blake Cale

Last year I joined a group of Christian leaders, Black and white, on a tour of the National Museum of African American History and Culture located in Washington, DC.

Untangling Critical Race Theory: What Christians Need to Know and Why It Matters

Untangling Critical Race Theory: What Christians Need to Know and Why It Matters

272 pages

$18.61

Even though I’ve read quite a bit about slavery and Jim Crow, I was still physically and emotionally disturbed by the visual depictions of the systemic and violent ways in which people of color were treated for centuries of American history. There is no sugarcoating this history. It was (and is) an offense against God, with ripple effects that continue to shape our national life.

In the past decade, conversations on racism have become more heated, reaching a fever pitch in 2020 with the killing of George Floyd at the hands of a Minneapolis police officer.

One outcome of the resulting ferment of protest and denunciation was renewed attention to critical race theory (popularly known as CRT), a controversial legal theory once confined to the academic world and now increasingly mainstreamed and popularized in public life, including many of our leading institutions.

Books like White Fragility by Robin DiAngelo or How to Be an Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi rose to the top of bestseller lists in 2020 and after. Corporations, government entities, and even churches began implementing steps drawn from these and other popular works. Evangelical publishers churned out books in this spirit as well.

Some Christian leaders have defended the use of CRT as a helpful analytical tool. Others have criticized it as a totalizing worldview opposed to biblical Christianity. This debate has divided many Christians, exhausted many pastors, split many organizations, and convulsed our politics.

Seeking to bring sanity and clarity to this ongoing conversation is Ed Uszynski, a senior content strategist for FamilyLife and a veteran of other organizations under the Cru umbrella, like Athletes in Action.

Uszynski holds a PhD in American culture studies from Bowling Green State University. His new book, Untangling Critical Race Theory: What Christians Need to Know and Why It Matters, draws on both his scholarship and his experiences in evangelical spaces.

Untangling Critical Race Theory is at its best when Uszynski both systematically defines and outlines the philosophy of Marxism, from which CRT borrows heavily. According to Uszynski, Marxism advances seven interrelated theses:

  • God doesn’t exist.
  • Capitalism causes all the problems in the world.
  • Economic systems form the base on which the rest of society develops.
  • People benefit only through exploiting others.
  • Without intervention, capitalism will eventually implode.
  • A socialist utopia, facilitated and controlled by the state, will eventually replace it.
  • Formal religion is an “opiate,” a tool used by power holders to hypnotize people and keep them in check.

Uszynski goes on to make substantive critiques of Marxism as both godless and hopeless. These critiques—and his analysis of social conditions in parts of the West that often make Marxism attractive—are among the best parts of the book.

In one poignant section, Uszynski interacts with Carl F. H. Henry’s classic book The Uneasy Conscience of Modern Fundamentalism, in which Henry pleads with fellow evangelicals to engage in social action. As Uszynski’s perceptive reading of Henry suggests, when Christians retreat from the social arena, it creates a vacuum that faulty and destructive theories like Marxism will naturally fill.

“Christians,” he writes, “who have access to a revelation that simultaneously explains, condemns, and transcends human history, should appreciate why someone without hope in God might be attracted to the prospect of what Marx offers.”

Untangling Critical Race Theory is also helpful in working through the basic tenets of CRT and demonstrating their rootedness in Marxist principles. “If Marx built the house,” Uszynski writes, “and Critical Theory modernized and refurbished the rooms, then Critical Race Theory added a new wing with its own uniquely stylized decor.” He carefully points to the social conditions CRT seeks to address and offers a biblical critique showing where CRT falls short of better, biblical solutions.

Yet for all of the book’s strengths, it ultimately bogs down in a few important ways. First, Uszynski too often assumes a context of evangelical failure. His writing is replete with broad-brush critiques and dismissive descriptors, and he seems unwilling to find anything redemptive in evangelical attempts to bring about racial reconciliation.

There is, of course, much to lament in evangelical dialogue on race, and there is no denying that many evangelicals were deeply complicit in the evils of both slavery and segregation. But ignoring good-faith efforts to reckon with and repent of these sins is both uncharitable and ahistorical.

Second, Uszynski seems unable to decide if critical race theory is a destructive, totalizing worldview or a series of ideas that can be selectively applied in positive ways. In one section, he writes:

Critical Theory [CT] puts humans at the center and demands we adjust to Progressive ideas. Christian theology puts God at the center and demands we adjust to his revealed truth. CT wants to erase dominant culture’s moral boundaries to set people free. Christianity wants to resist secular culture’s moral relativism or people can never be free. CT seeks to subdue others’ power for the sake of themselves. Christianity says submit and leverage your own power for the sake of others.

Shortly after this, he adds,

If the will to power becomes your endgame, all your answers to social problems eventually produce something dehumanizing, even if you’re trying to make things better. Godless worldviews always make things worse to the extent that their analysis and proposed solutions deviate from biblical truth. Embrace a “Critical” worldview comprehensively and you’re left with absurdity, anxiety, and meaninglessness.

These are just a few of many passages where Uszynski substantively and soberly critiques CRT and finds it incompatible with Christianity.

Yet at other times, he describes being “baffled” at patterns of Christian skepticism toward CRT, alleging the growth of a frivolous “cottage industry” that panders to audiences who already oppose it. In a final section on takeaways for racial reconciliation dialogue, he urges the “redemptive use” of CRT.

The third way the book falls short is in failing to practice more sober engagement with reasonable and responsible critics of CRT. I recognize, with the author, that terms like CRT and woke often function as smears, unfairly aimed at pastors who sincerely desire racial reconciliation and justice. Others reject all categories of systemic injustice as warmed-over Marxism, even though Scripture—the Minor Prophets especially—is not shy about dissecting power structures that are shot through with sinful patterns.

There is a subsection of our tribe that refuses to consider Jesus’ prayer in John 17 about Christian unity or to work diligently to preserve “the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace” (Eph. 4:3). If the multiethnic scene in Revelation 7:9 is our future, we should do what we can, even sacrificially, to live up to what God says we already are.

And yet, I wish Untangling Critical Race Theory at least acknowledged that many CRT critics are acting in good faith, especially as they resist ideas Uszynski himself deems antithetical to Christianity.

When pro-Hamas demonstrators take to the streets in American cities after a massacre in Israel, shouting genocidal slogans because they lump Israel in with a global “white power structure,” then perhaps pushing back on a totalizing framework of oppressor versus oppressed can’t be dismissed as phony culture-warring. When a major Smithsonian museum issues a guide to “whiteness” that groups “hard work,” “self-reliance,” and nuclear-family norms under the umbrella of “white dominant culture,” then perhaps not all misgivings about CRT are unfounded.

One imagines that the book could have been strengthened by engaging with the brightest and best-informed CRT critics. Take, for instance, the trenchant but fair analysis from Neil Shenvi and Pat Sawyer in Critical Dilemma or Tony Evans’s pastoral voice in Kingdom Race Theology.

Uszynski also ignores important conversations taking place in scholarly and journalistic circles among ideological mavericks like Glenn Loury, Thomas Chatterton Williams, Bari Weiss, and Bill Maher, none of whom can plausibly count as evangelical or politically right-wing.

It’s worth noting too that many vocal CRT foes are working-class minorities who see it as contrary to the vision of Martin Luther King Jr. and Frederick Douglass. They favor an approach that brings people together rather than dividing them into warring and aggrieved subgroups.

Despite its shortcomings, however, Untangling Critical Race Theory is another worthy entry into America’s ongoing race dialogue. However painful, this is a conversation we can hardly afford to overlook—not if we take seriously the gospel’s promise of Christ creating “one new humanity” in his body (Eph. 2:15); not if we are struck by the vision of every nation, tribe, and tongue gathered around the throne of God in the New Jerusalem; and not if we are sobered and convicted by America’s racial sins, both past and present.

Yet, as Uszynski affirms, “Christians don’t need CRT to live biblically regarding race because a kingdom-shaped worldview already supports most of what CRT seeks to rectify.” Let’s pray for a church that humbly pursues this kingdom-shaped worldview in the areas where we have influence.

Daniel Darling is director of the Land Center for Cultural Engagement. His books include Agents of Grace.

Theology

The Secret Sin of ‘Mommy Juice’

Alcoholism among women is rising. Can the church help?

Illustration by Ibrahim Rayintakath

Fifteen years ago, Sherry Hoppen was a mom of three, a ministry leader in her church, and a volunteer at her local pregnancy center when her younger brother was killed in a drunk driving accident. The tragedy triggered her own slow spiral into alcoholism—one that nearly destroyed her marriage and her life.

Over the next decade, Hoppen evolved from a casual drinker to an addict who barely recognized herself, always secretly drinking or causing scenes at family holidays due to her dependence. Like many who struggle, she thought she could “fix” herself and moderate her drinking, even as she daily hid vodka-filled water bottles inside her purse.

“I was scared to tell anybody because I knew if I did, my drinking days were over,” Hoppen said. “And I didn’t want people to see [our family] fail.”

Her husband was a church elder, she led the children’s church choir, and they were beloved businesspeople in their small Michigan community.

“I couldn’t imagine letting anybody see what was really going on,” she said. “I didn’t want to go to rehab because … everybody knows if you go to rehab, including my kids.”

It took Hoppen four more years after recognizing her dependence to commit to sobriety. Her story as a churchgoing suburban mom concealing alcohol addiction is increasingly common.

In 2023, around 9 percent of adult women in the US struggled with alcoholism—about 11.7 million women. This means that in an average church of 500 people, at least 20 women attending likely struggle with alcohol dependence as well.

If you add in women who might admit to being uncomfortable with their relationship with alcohol, it’s a lot more. This discomfort, often called “gray-area drinking,” is the kind of hush-hush thing women Google on incognito mode in the middle of the night.

Alcohol abuse is rarely discussed with or even known by a woman’s closest friends or spouse. Most of us assume that regular churchgoers, Sunday school teachers, Bible study leaders, and pregnancy center volunteers aren’t the ones dealing with substance abuse.

While men have a higher risk of struggling with alcoholism, the gap between men and women has been shrinking in recent years. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) data from the past two decades found that rates of alcohol-related deaths have increased more in women than men, especially those in their 30s.

Drinking is a gendered experience: Women are more easily and quickly addicted and more affected by long-term health consequences. Underage drinking, which is more common among young girls than boys, has major impacts on brain development.

In her 2013 book Drink: The Intimate Relationship Between Women and Alcohol, Ann Dowsett Johnston quotes a research director at the British Columbia Centre of Excellence for Women’s Health, saying that alcohol is “the issue affecting [teen] girls’ health” and it is “being marketed as ‘liberation.’”

There’s no reason to think the percentage is different for Christian women and secular women who struggle with drinking, although some Lifeway surveys have shown that Christians generally drink less than their secular peers. Substance abuse doesn’t discriminate, but the church has a long way to go in ministering to women in this category. Like secular women, Christian women are often unknowingly swayed by cultural shifts and advertising.

Until recent decades, alcohol brands marketed themselves primarily to men: emphasizing images of dark, frosty beers ready after a long day of work or playing up the sweet burn of scotch that tasted of refined masculinity. In the 1990s, however, the industry recognized that women were an undertapped market.

David Jernigan, director of the Center on Alcohol Marketing and Youth at Johns Hopkins University, points to the increase in alcohol marketing toward women in the late 1990s with the introduction of sugary drinks for “entry-level drinkers.” A decade later, “skinny” versions of premade cocktails launched for women who wanted low-calorie options. Rates of alcohol use disorder rose by 83 percent between 2002 and 2013, on par with the rise in feminized alcohol marketing.

Simultaneously, more Christians were shunning the hard boundaries of teetotaling fundamentalism, preferring not to be labeled “legalistic.” This combination of factors meant church ladies and stay-at-home moms joined the ranks of those tipping back far more frequently than ever before. It’s your right to indulge, they were told.

With more alcoholic beverages targeted at women, the normalization of drinking to assuage the stress of motherhood amplified quickly. As social media grew, so too did “mommy wine culture” memes and “rosé all day” slogans celebrating alcohol as an end-of-day necessity that women deserved.

Before becoming “sober curious,” writer Halee Gray Scott didn’t identify as an alcoholic but questioned her drinking. “I caught myself anxiously watching the clock for 5 p.m., when I could open up a bottle of Pinot Grigio,” she wrote for CT.

Alcohol use only increased during the pandemic, with an average of 488 deaths per day in the US during COVID-19’s height in 2021. With lost social connections (including church), many turned to alcohol as a way to deal with stress, isolation, and uncertainty.

And it’s not just the US. Twenty years after the alcohol industry began marketing to women, “the UK has an epidemic of liver cirrhosis and liver cancer among women in their 20s,” Jernigan said. “The cancer doctors in the UK are blown away; they have never seen anything like this.”

Alcohol affects women’s bodies in more significant ways than men’s. Initially, female bodies absorb more alcohol and take longer to metabolize it, resulting in higher blood alcohol levels that happen faster and remain longer.

This often results in steeper long-term consequences as well. Among these are higher risks of liver disease, shrinkage in brain development, heart damage, and a variety of cancers, including breast cancer. It also puts women at higher likelihood for experiencing sexual violence or attack.

But the reasons women drink are notable too: Women are more likely to have suffered childhood abuse and past sexual assault than men, and mental health in young adult women has been declining for years. Many people with substance abuse issues have experienced significant trauma. The more adverse childhood experiences (ACEs) a person has, the more likely they are to develop addiction in adulthood. Addiction is an attempt to soothe a wound, but admitting an issue with substances can be seen as a moral failure—especially among evangelical women, and mothers in particular.

Christian mothers have historically been viewed as stabilizers of the home when men succumbed to drunkenness. These women led the temperance movement in the early 20th century, specifically to address the harms alcohol was causing in society and family life. “Women were more likely than men to vote to shutter the saloons that were destroying their homes,” wrote Jennifer Woodruff Tait in an article for CT.

Today, with cultural messaging and marketing targeted directly at mothers with brands like Mom Juice or Mom Water, and the fear of many women in the church of appearing legalistic in their denouncement of alcohol, the double standard is apparent.

“I think the church would be more forgiving of a man who was an alcoholic than they would be of a young mother,” said Laura Cain, a 17-year volunteer with the Christian ministry Celebrate Recovery. “We are expected to be super holy and saintly, and there’s so much pressure on women.”

This false messaging of empowerment in an alcohol-obsessed society, paired with assumptions about churchgoers, makes it difficult for the Christian woman to share her struggle.

And the recovery world—within church and without—hasn’t caught up to the epidemic of women’s drinking problems.

Advocate Kristen McAvoy says she was addicted to Xanax and alcohol while attending church and a small group Bible study. Nobody knew what she was going through.

“I was the most involved I’ve ever been in church in my life at that time,” she told CT. “I would go to church sometimes on Xanax or when I was drinking.”

Now sober from both substances for three years, she says she was terrified to admit to her small group that she had a problem like this. Even now, while hosting a very public sobriety platform on Instagram, McAvoy still feels like addiction is a taboo topic and is nervous discussing sobriety in church settings.

It’s one thing to ask friends to pray for your stress levels and quite another to confess to substance abuse. Many Christian women, hamstrung by reputation and image, feel incapable of revealing their struggle, believing they will eventually conquer it alone. This is rarely the case.

McAvoy said that the only reason she confessed her problem at church is because her pastor transparently shared his own experience with addiction, creating a safe space for her own admission. Despite many churches’ aims to be welcoming, Christians are often fearful of revealing their faults—creating a superficial culture of perfection.

Secular addiction researcher Yohan Hari famously said, “The opposite of addiction isn’t sobriety; it’s connection.” This might be why the most successful recovery effort of all time is Alcoholics Anonymous (AA). AA began as a faith-based program, based on the idea of what Hari calls “social recovery.”

Christian therapist and sobriety expert Caroline Beidler, who is 10 years sober, calls AA meetings the “downstairs church”—also the title of her book. She agrees that Christian women specifically have a “kind of double stigma” in recovery. Beidler, who cofounded a recovery house and speaks at sobriety events for women regularly, said there are far fewer resources for women than men with alcohol use disorder.

“I live in a small town in Eastern Tennessee, and when I see a woman in a meeting, I’m surprised because there are hardly any women attending,” she told CT.

Neither culture nor the church is well-equipped to work with women facing addiction. In many church settings, as alcohol is normalized and even considered missional, there is often little consideration that someone might struggle with substance abuse. Nor are there ample opportunities to admit one’s struggle in a safe environment.

Many churches serve wine for Communion. In some contexts, it’s common at unofficial church social gatherings to serve alcohol—and in some churches, at more official events.

When I was drinking, I would go out with my church small group on the weekends and drink with them. A mission team I joined had trip-planning meetings at a bar, where people would sip whiskey and wine while brainstorming outreach events. At a church retreat, my cabinmates suggested we “sneak” some wine in—while I was trying to escape alcohol’s call by being at the retreat.

Because churches often have close connections with AA and social services, they should be the perfect place to ask for help. But meetups with titles like “Pastors and Pints,” “Wined Down Wednesday,” and “Beer and Hymns” or other alcohol-infused gatherings are confusing and unhelpful while implying that the church is not the place to seek help.

In The Recovery-Minded Church, Jonathan Benz writes that even “experienced pastoral caregivers with all the right recovery resources at their fingertips” see their role as making referrals rather than as being a partner to walk with.

“Too often, church leaders’ care for addicts ends with this referral step,” Benz writes. “That is actually just the beginning, not the end, of an opportunity to encounter the prodigal God who loves you beyond your wildest imagination.”

But if alcohol is a part of the church culture, officially or not, that role may not be clearly visible. A few jokes from church members about “needing wine” after wrangling kids into the service, and someone may permanently give up on sharing their struggles—or falsely believe that everyone drinks to calm down.

Erin Jean Warde, author of the book Sober Spirituality, was working as a priest at her Episcopal church when she realized she had to deal with her own alcohol dependence. Ministry leaders often find it more difficult to seek help due to added shame and the threat of job or reputation loss.

When Warde tried to get sober, she used the 40 days of Lent as her “excuse” to stop drinking. But even then, friends reminded her she could technically still drink on Sundays, when the Lenten fast is not observed.

“Even inside the safest excuse to take a sober curious break,” she wrote, “I was not free from people encouraging me to drink.”

Warde felt no support in her quiet quest to quit drinking and put it off for fear of becoming an “outsider” in her church community. Even worse, the only local AA meeting was held in her own church basement.

Hadley Sorensen, a mom of three living in the Washington, DC, area, understands this well. Like many Christian women facing issues with alcohol, no one else thought she had a problem. She was a successful woman, active in her church and community, with a strong marriage and plenty of friends.

“I didn’t appear to be doing anything out of the norm,” Sorensen said. “No one knew I was struggling, but I just had this deep sense of shame—like I was out of alignment with my values and my faith.”

Only in the past decade have more addiction resources specifically for women emerged. Though Alcoholics Anonymous has had exclusively female groups for years, popular online communities like Sober Sis and She Recovers now often host in-person retreats as well.

Still, it’s common for women of faith to feel alienated from secular sobriety support groups. Though AA refers to a higher power, plenty of members are not personally religious and the focus is definitively not on Christ. Many Christians are also wary of New Age concepts and the language of “finding my truth” common to secular recovery programs.

McAvoy never felt comfortable in those communities. She’s now part of one of the only exclusively Christian, women-focused recovery support groups, She Surrenders, which Hoppen founded.

“I really like it because we always incorporate faith into the meetings,” said McAvoy. “I feel like it was exactly what I had been looking for.”

Having support options outside of church is important, because things like anonymity matter to someone taking first steps into recovery. But there are also ways churches can encourage more sharing and “recovering out loud.” Most women I interviewed agreed that churches need more public testimony and normalization of addiction issues that speak directly to those suffering silently.

“All I know is I found Jesus in an AA meeting, because that’s where people were really honest and vulnerable and broken,” Beidler said. “Scripture tells us that God is close to the brokenhearted, so you go to an AA meeting and there are broken hearts sitting in a circle, sharing it all.”

Jesus should be just as easy to find in a church sanctuary as a church basement. Through Celebrate Recovery and organizations like The Center for Addiction and Faith, Christian groups are addressing this gap, but there are still ways to improve in evangelical churches more broadly.

Laura Cain’s pastor launched a chapter of Celebrate Recovery after conducting an anonymous survey of his congregation to see what issues they were dealing with. He was “shocked and horrified” by how many people said they were struggling with substance abuse problems. Behind the pleasantries of a Sunday morning gathering, the anonymous survey unveiled the truth about an ailing flock.

In recovery meetings, foundational rules like anonymity give people the space to talk without being offered advice. And it’s often helpful for women to have a smaller—and sometimes single-gender—group in which they can speak openly. Particularly for women with histories of sexual trauma, it can be hard to open up in front of men.

For churches, Cain suggests that small group leaders employ “safety” rules, like Celebrate Recovery does, to assure confidentiality, anonymity, no interruptions, and a chance for everyone to share, even about sensitive topics.

As Benz writes, churches must move from “a position of meeting needs and providing ‘service’ to empowerment and ‘kinship’” as they welcome alcohol-dependent people into their communities.

Pastors, leaders, and church members can all step forward and go first with powerful testimonies of what God has done in and through their brokenness. One needn’t struggle with substance abuse specifically to understand the pain of trauma, hurt, or addiction.

“The truth is we are all broken,” Cain said. “We are all messed up, and it’s a relief that I don’t have to put a mask on [at Celebrate Recovery] and they’re not expecting me to.”

Four years ago, I stood in front of my church and told them through tears how God had empowered me to stop drinking after two decades of struggle. It was the most vulnerable and scary thing I’d ever done, but I knew God was calling me to “go first.” I knew someone else would see themselves in my struggle and finally feel like they weren’t alone.

For many years prior, I had suffered in silence, unable to find many resources outside of AA (which intimidated me) or feel safe confiding in anyone about my problem. Quitting felt nearly impossible. It’s why I’m so thankful that Christian women today are starting to step out of the shadows, share openly, and be beacons of light for others who may feel alone in their struggle.

After the service, several people came up to me and confessed their current or past addictions. I received messages online and began to create a space on social media for those suffering in silence to come to the Cross.

Our silent shame robs others of community, solidarity, and support. Churches have an opportunity to meet women in the midst of their brokenness. People ultimately just want to belong, feel seen, and not be judged in their brokenness.

Ruth Stitt, who has been a licensed professional counselor for more than two decades, agrees that women of faith may especially carry more shame and secrecy about an addiction.

“Christians who have a certain expectation—having grown up in the church, maybe—really struggle,” Stitt said. “Even people that I see [in therapy] don’t tell the truth on the intake form asking how much they drink.”

Cain said the ability to speak openly and at length about one’s issues, without interruption or “tidy” solutions being recommended, is key. “I don’t try to fix people,” she said. “I let the Holy Spirit do that.”

The last time Sherry Hoppen tried to drink, she gagged so much she couldn’t swallow. She believes God physically prevented her from being able to swallow alcohol because this had never happened to her before.

“I only saw this in hindsight,” she said. “At the time, I didn’t know if I was sick or what was going on, but that is what I believe to be true today.”

She had relapsed “too many times than I could possibly count” and had nearly given up on the possibility of lifetime sobriety. But that day, God lifted that burden from her hands.

“I ended up on my living room floor, flat on my face, and just told God, ‘I surrender,’” she said. “I said, ‘I’ll do whatever you want’ … and in that moment, I knew it was over.”

Ten years later, she leads the female Christian sobriety support group McAvoy attends and has published her memoir, Sober Cycle.

She’s far from alone. As more Christian women become vocal about their addictive experiences with alcohol and change evangelical church culture, we can all work to open a safe space to others who wouldn’t otherwise ask for help.

Ericka Andersen is a freelance writer living in Indianapolis. She is the author of Leaving Cloud 9 and Reason to Return: Why Women Need the Church and the Church Needs Women.

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Was Paul a Slave?

The surprising argument that Saul of Tarsus was born into bondage.

Illustration by Michael Marsicano

Of the many letters the apostle Paul wrote, few survived. We have a good deal of his communication to churches as a whole—letters to groups of believers in particular cities. This makes sense. Such letters were read publicly and often; they were copied and disseminated and celebrated as Scripture soon after the ink had dried.

Paul sent a number of letters to individuals as well. To read his biblical writings is to sense that you are glimpsing only a fraction of his relational network and influence. Almost all of those letters have been lost.

But there are exceptions.

It was a tall order for personal letters to ascend to the level of canon. It helped to be bound up with a great figure, a leader of a great community. Timothy, for instance, was a towering second-generation church leader; he was also the bishop of Ephesus, a major city of the Roman Empire and a major Christian center. Titus was a pillar of the Gentile mission and served as the bishop of Crete. Their eponymous letters had huge communities to champion their inclusion in Scripture.

A mystery for the ages, then, is why Paul’s letter to Philemon—the leader of a house church in the minor city of Colossae—survives at all. It’s the most personal letter we have from Paul. It runs only 25 verses.

The letter reveals a story. In it, a man named Onesimus has fled his master Philemon. Onesimus was most likely a household slave, a bondservant high in the pecking order.

To call him a runaway slave is true, though it is misleading for modern readers, who might imagine Onesimus attempting to escape through something like the Underground Railroad.

In fact, some scholars argue that Onesimus sought out Paul but planned to return to his master. Steven M. Baugh, an emeritus professor of New Testament at Westminster Seminary California, wrote, “It seems most likely that Onesimus intentionally ran away from Philemon and ran to Paul in order to seek his intercession on his behalf with Philemon over some quarrel between the master and slave. This letter is Paul’s intercession.”

It’s hard for us today to understand why Onesimus might want to return to enslavement. But the explanation is simple: If Onesimus has an important position helping his wealthy owner, he would not quickly trade it for a life as a poor peasant.

“Slaves belonging to the households of the wealthy or moderately wealthy in some ways lived a better life than the free poor of the city,” wrote historian James S. Jeffers in The Greco-Roman World of the New Testament Era. “Unlike the free poor, such slaves normally were assured three meals a day, lodging, clothing and health care.” Many slaves, Jeffers adds, “were better educated than the freeborn poor.”

That said, the traditional and most common interpretation of Onesimus’s motives is that he took Philemon’s money and had no intent of going back.

And there would have been plenty of money. Many slaves with organizational skills and business acumen were charged with overseeing the businesses of their masters. These were known as oikonomos, or stewards (the source for our word economy).

Philemon, a wealthy businessman and Christian convert of Paul’s, lived in Colossae. He would have had a number of slaves to assist in his ventures. Due to the risk of robbery along the route to major trade centers, men like Philemon would not travel with their goods themselves. Instead, they would entrust the task to reliable slave stewards like Onesimus.

But in this case, instead of returning to Philemon with his money, Onesimus may have pocketed the cash and hopped on a ship to Rome. And soon, we find him at Paul’s side, serving him in prison and becoming a follower of Christ under Paul’s instruction.

Whether he fled to seek Paul or happened to hear of him through the local Christian community in Rome, we can’t be sure. But it is strange that a runaway slave would spend so much time around a religious figure under suspicion, serving house arrest, surrounded by agents of the state.

Why did Onesimus take the risk and come to Paul? It’s as if he knew something about Paul that we’ve forgotten.

In the decades before the birth of Jesus, a spirit of zealotry hung thick in the air in northern Israel. The land was a hotbed of resistance and uprisings against Rome—sometimes armed revolts, sometimes theft from Roman depots where the odious Roman taxes were stored.

But Rome was no rookie. Keeping people subjugated was a wicked art, and the empire had centuries of practice.

Insurrectionist commanders were executed by horrific means such as crucifixion or impalement. And Rome knew it was not enough to cut off the head; to snuff out rebellion, whole communities had to be dealt with.

So—as the ancient historian Josephus tells us—Rome began sacking entire rebel villages, selling their inhabitants as slaves on the many slave markets. Slave dealers during this era often followed behind Roman legions on military campaigns, gathering human spoils and filling Roman coffers.

One of the villages in Galilee would especially bedevil Rome in the hundred years surrounding Christ’s resurrection. It was the far northern village of Gischala.

After some infraction there in the final years B.C. or early years A.D., the details of which are forgotten to history, the Romans rounded up the people of Gischala, carted them away, and enslaved them.

If the early church’s memory is correct, Paul’s parents were among them.

In A.D. 382, the pope commissioned a young and astonishingly bright scholar named Jerome to update the archaic Latin Bible. Scholars who knew Greek were a dime a dozen, but Jerome was one of the few with mastery in Hebrew as well as Greek.

Two decades later, working from a monastery in Bethlehem, he finished the monumental task of the Vulgate, the world’s most influential Bible translation. He also managed to write, among other works, four commentaries on Paul’s letters.

In Jerome’s commentary to Philemon, he records the early church’s memory of Paul:

They say that the parents of the apostle Paul were from Gischala, a region of Judaea, and that, when the whole province was devastated by the hand of Rome and the Jews scattered throughout the world, they were moved to Tarsus a town of Cilicia.

Another translation of Jerome’s commentary may put the Latin fuisse translatos more accurately. It says Paul’s parents “were taken to Tarsus”—that is, taken against their will.

Some people have speculated that Paul’s ancestors were opportunists. Maybe they left Israel because leatherworking and tentmaking was better business in a major Roman hub like Tarsus.

But that’s not what the early church said.

This “taken” euphemism means that Rome dealt with Paul’s parents the way they almost always dealt with defiant people. According to German scholar Theodor Zahn, they were “taken prisoners of war” and sold as slaves in Tarsus. Paul may have been a child then, Zahn says, or he may have been born partway into his parents’ slavery obligation.

Roman slavery was not the same as American chattel slavery. “Roman citizens often freed their slaves,” Jeffers wrote. “In urban households, this frequently happened by the time the slave reached age 30. We know of few urban slaves who reached old age before gaining their freedom.”

According to the classicist Mary Beard, many contemporaries saw this slavery-to-citizenship path as a distinguishing feature of Rome’s success. She writes, “Some historians reckon that, by the second century CE, the majority of the free citizen population of the city of Rome had slaves somewhere in their ancestry.”

This is why many Bible translations have chosen to use the term servant or bondservant rather than slave. Enslavement was certainly a gross affront to human rights. But New Testament slavery was not the kind of slavery North Americans often think of. Roman enslavement generally had an end. And in many cases, it even created opportunities for social advancement, especially for children of the enslaved.

A few centuries after Jerome, Photios I, the bishop of Constantinople, walked around his famed library and pulled down some volumes and documents that have since been lost in the sands of time. Only his letter citing those documents remains. Drawing not from Jerome but from another early church source historians still haven’t identified, he wrote,

Paul, the divine apostle … who had laid hold of the Jerusalem above as his fatherland, had also as his portion the fatherland of his ancient ancestors and physical race, namely Gischala (which is now a village in the region of Judea, being called of old a small town). But because his parents, together with many others of his race, were taken captive by the Roman spear and Tarsus fell to his lot where he was also born, he gives it as his fatherland.

Photios has Paul born in Tarsus to his enslaved parents. Now, just because a tradition exists doesn’t mean it’s true. Plenty of traditions don’t square with Scripture and must be left aside.

But not this one.

Jerome Murphy-O’Connor, a Pauline scholar and New Testament professor at the École Biblique in Jerusalem, wrote that the “likelihood that he or any earlier Christian invented the association of Paul’s family with Gischala is remote. The town is not mentioned in the Bible. It had no connection with Benjamin. It had no associations with the Galilean ministry of Jesus.”

Translation: If you’re going to invent a legend about Paul’s background, you’re going to come up with something cool. You’d put him in an important place, with a story that cements his heritage in the biblical narrative. Not in an obscure town that doesn’t even appear in Scripture.

As historical church traditions go, this is about as reliable as they get. German scholars like Zahn and Adolf von Harnack refer to this type of detail as unerfindbar—roughly, unfathomable, unless it’s true. English translations of this term clarify it as “too definite to have been invented.”

One of the great conundrums of Pauline scholarship is why few experts in the English-speaking world talk about this. Douglas Moo, a leading Paul scholar at Wheaton College, said in an interview, “I have run across very few books on Paul that even mention it.” In his biography of Paul, N. T. Wright casually remarks that this is a “later legend.”

But it’s hardly a legend, and it’s scarcely later.

Scholars of Jerome and Origen, another early church father, agree that Jerome’s statement about Paul’s parents, written in A.D. 386, is not original. In fact, little from Jerome’s commentary is original.

Ronald E. Heine, an Origen scholar at Bushnell University, said that “Jerome is basically translating Origen.” Caroline Bammel, an early church historian at Cambridge, put it more bluntly when she wrote that Jerome’s work in his commentaries is “largely plagiarized from Origen.”

Origen’s Philemon commentary, like much of his work, has been lost. But through Jerome’s translations—or appropriations—of other Origen commentaries, scholars are confident it comes from Origen. “In this commentary we have the exposition of Origen dressed in the garb of Jerome’s Latin,” Heine wrote.

This places the tradition about Paul’s heritage not in Jerome’s time but in Origen’s, the early 200s. And Origen was writing from Caesarea, next door to Galilee and in a city where Paul spent two years (Acts 23:23–24; 24:27). The elderly storytellers around him who kept the oral tradition would have grown up under the leadership of the second and third generations of the church.

Contrary to being some later legend, this is the “earliest known exposition of the Epistle to Philemon,” Heine writes. “In all likelihood, [it] represents the first commentary ever written on the epistle.”

In the German academy, the idea that Paul was a manumitted slave has been a live conversation for 150 years. Eminent 20th-century scholars like Von Harnack and Zahn, along with Martin Dibelius, gave Jerome’s story credence.

Plenty of other German scholars “take seriously the assertion that Paul’s parents came from Galilee,” wrote theologian Rainer Riesner, who teaches today at the University of Dortmund.

Some even go so far as to pinpoint which Galilean rebellion may have led to the enslavement of his parents—the uprising in 4 B.C., when Varus, the Roman governor of Syria, burned entire cities and crucified 2,000 people. In Galilean cities like Sepphoris, Josephus wrote in the Antiquities of the Jews, they “made its inhabitants slaves.”

If this is correct, the fact that Saul of Tarsus shows up in Jerusalem two decades later as a young teenager makes perfect sense. When Paul told the commander in Acts 22:28 that he was “born” a Roman citizen, that word, gennao, can refer to birth or adoption. Freed Roman slaves were often adopted into their master’s family and given a Roman name and citizenship.

This also explains why he has the name Paul, a very Roman name that no Pharisee would give their very Hebrew child.

Contrary to popular thought and pulpit references, Saul does not take on the name Paul after becoming a follower of Christ. The name Saul is with him from the beginning and continues to be used after his conversion (Acts 11, 13).

In Hebrew contexts, he uses his Hebrew name, Saul. In Greco-Roman contexts, he uses the cognomen (the third part of a Roman name) Paullus, which he would have inherited from the family that owned him.

Though he could have inherited the name Paullus from any number of Roman families, there was one particularly famous family with that name—the Aemilian tribe, according to 20th-century classics scholar G. A. Harrer. We cannot know for sure, but Harrer speculates that if Paul’s owner came from that tribe, his Roman name could have been L. Aemilius Paullus, also known as Saul.

Wherever the family name originated, Riesner said in an interview, Paul’s father “was manumitted by his Roman master and automatically earned [Roman] citizenship.”

It’s easy to forget how strange a person Paul is. He and Luke seem to tell such different stories of Paul’s life that it’s stumped some scholars.

In Acts, Luke paints a picture of Paul as a Roman and Tarsian citizen, at home in the Hellenistic Jewish world’s lax adherence to the ancient customs. Paul, however, refers to himself elsewhere in very Jewish terms: “a Hebrew of Hebrews”; Aramaic-speaking; “of the tribe of Benjamin”; a Pharisee; a zealot (Phil. 3:5–6).

If you didn’t have the Book of Acts, you’d likely presume Paul was from Galilee or Jerusalem based on the way he talks. After all, “a person did not become a Pharisee outside Palestine,” Riesner writes in Paul’s Early Period.

It was virtually unheard of for someone to be both a Galilean zealot Pharisee and a Roman citizen in Tarsus. For instance, some might claim one could not be a “Hebrew of Hebrews” and a Hellenistic Jew. But that’s precisely what Paul was.

Paul was not a Greek-speaking Jew who had lost his language, lost his culture, and was living in the lap of Roman luxury.

Then as now, there was a strong differentiation between Jews who lived in and defended their homeland and those who made a more comfortable life elsewhere. Paul intentionally signaled that he was rooted in and fiercely committed to his heritage.

At the same time, though, Paul was an oddity among Romans, because Hellenized Jews rarely spoke Aramaic. Paul’s fluency in the language is so significant that it is the climax of the scene recorded in Acts 21 and 22.

In the second half of Acts 21, Paul’s presence in the Jerusalem temple causes an uproar. He’s mistaken for an Egyptian false prophet who had deceived many people a few years earlier, and a mob becomes so violent that Roman soldiers have to physically carry Paul away.

But Paul, in his native and educated Greek, addresses the Roman commander. Hearing Paul’s Greek, the commander realizes they have the wrong guy; this is clearly no Egyptian.

Paul then asks if he can address the mob.

He mounts the steps and begins speaking to the people—in Aramaic, the language that had filled their ears as infants bobbing on their mothers’ shoulders. “When they heard him speak to them in Aramaic, they became very quiet,” Luke says (22:2).

Just as fourth- and fifth-generation Americans do not normally speak the languages of their immigrant ancestors, it was unheard of for diaspora Jews to speak Aramaic. That was the language of Israel. Unless Paul’s family had been very recently removed, he would not have been a native speaker.

There’s another inconsistency on Paul’s résumé: Paul had moved to Jerusalem as a teen to study with Gamaliel, a renowned Jewish teacher (5:34). This was not an honor that ordinary diaspora kids or Hellenistic Jews usually received. But if Paul’s parents were zealots, forcibly transplanted to Tarsus, then his pedigree might have marked him as special.

“Many modern scholars strongly doubt that a pious Jew like Paul could be a Roman citizen,” Riesner told me. Reconciling the Pharisee, Hebrew of Hebrews, Aramaic-speaking zealot Paul with the Roman citizen, globetrotting, Greek-speaking Paul seems impossible. Unless, that is, we consider the early church’s recollection of Paul’s upbringing as a child in an enslaved family.

“The manumission of Paul’s father solves these problems,” Riesner told me.

Riesner comes from a long line of German scholars who have thought the same. “The great liberal Adolf von Harnack and the great conservative Theodor Zahn” were both “strong defenders” of this tradition, he told me. They did not even agree on the Resurrection, but they agreed on this.

So why aren’t more Christians in the English-speaking world talking about this?

One theory is simply that German scholars of the 20th century read Greek and Latin much better than current American or British scholars do. By the time those Germans began their posts at elite universities, they could take up Homer or Origen in Greek, or Jerome in Latin. They could read not just for research but for fun.

New Testament studies in the English-speaking world, in contrast, tends to emphasize only the corpus of New Testament Greek. Many New Testament researchers simply cannot read Homer—or Origen, for that matter. Thus, after World War II, when the center of scholarship shifted from German-speaking to Anglophone universities, this part of the Paul conversation may have gotten lost in translation and in the flipping of dictionary pages.

“The church fathers grew up quickly here in America,” Heine, the Origen scholar, told me. It’s only very recently that patristic studies have received proper attention, he said.

Whatever the exact reasons, some of our scholarship clearly suffers from a lack of familiarity and trust for the work of the early church.

One of the words Paul sometimes uses to identify himself as a young man is zealot (usually translated in places like Galatians 1:14 as “zealous”). We have generally taken this to mean that he was full of zeal or “on fire for God.” But there’s good reason to believe that Paul was identifying himself with the particular Jewish sect violently opposed to anyone infringing on Torah observance, which included Romans.

If that’s so, what kind of zealot was Paul before he encountered Christ?

Through his experience with slavery, Paul had learned that Rome wasn’t altogether evil—the empire had conferred citizenship upon him, after all. Paul retained the zealot perspectives of his upbringing, but they had changed. No longer directed against Rome, his zealotry was for his ancestral traditions. His persecution of the Christians was an expression of that zealotry.

Even after his conversion, Paul appears reluctant to reveal his Roman citizenship in front of fellow Hebrews, who may still associate him with the zealots. He puts up with beatings that he could have prevented by invoking his citizenship (Acts 16:16–40). As the Roman philosopher Cicero wrote, “to bind a Roman citizen is a crime, to flog him an abomination, to slay him almost an act of parricide.”

It’s only when there are few or no Jewish onlookers that Paul seems willing to play his citizenship card. In the scene in Acts 22, Paul is sequestered in the soldiers’ barracks when he shocks them with the news.

It’s possible that not until Paul’s later years would many Jerusalem apostles have known about his citizenship. It’s hard to be a great Jewish leader and also a citizen of the empire oppressing your people.

But if you were raised a slave in a Roman city and then freed, it makes good sense how you could be both a citizen of the empire and not entirely warm toward the empire.

Zealots practiced their zealotry in different ways. Some extremists took to assassinating political figures, Romans, or Rome-sympathizing Jews. Others engaged in more specific religious violence, such as abducting uncircumcised Hellenistic Jews and circumcising them by force.

For those of this mindset, their hero was Phinehas, the grandson of Aaron. Just as the Israelites were about to enter the Promised Land, Phinehas had burned with anger over men who were taking Moabite women and joining in their fertility cult worship. In Numbers 25, he fetched a spear and followed a man and his Midianite lover into a tent, stabbing them both through with a single thrust and turning away God’s wrath.

In his biography of Paul, N. T. Wright explains, “When Paul the Apostle describes himself in his earlier life as being consumed with zeal for his ancestral traditions, he was looking back on the Phinehas-shaped motivation of his youth.”

Phinehas is young Paul’s hero. Paul is desperate to deliver the Jewish people through the same kind of violent zeal.

In the pages of Scripture, then, it’s little coincidence how we meet him.

In the budding messianic movement later called Christianity, there was a standout preacher named Stephen. Not only could he preach, but he helped lead a group serving Hellenistic Jewish widows whose needs went unmet because they were seen as second-class compared to Hebrew widows (Acts 6). In young Paul’s mind, Stephen was desecrating Jewish notions of monotheism and of violating the rabbinic traditions, just as Jesus did.

If the zealots were looking for a target, Stephen would do just fine.

Paul then incites the era’s equivalent of a lynching. It’s not led by local Hebrews but by “members of the Synagogue of the Freedmen (as it was called)—Jews of Cyrene and Alexandria as well as the provinces of Cilicia and Asia” (6:9).

As Gordon-Conwell Theological Seminary scholar Eckhard J. Schnabel wrote in his Acts commentary, “The ‘freedmen’ … were Jews who had been manumitted as slaves by their owners or were the descendants of emancipated Jewish slaves.”

If the early church is correct about Paul’s parents, then, whether Paul was born to a freed father or was born into slavery and later freed, Paul would have been considered a freedman.

The members of this synagogue of freedmen go on to produce false witnesses against Stephen in order to drum up a case against him (v. 13).

It would be strange for a “Hebrew of Hebrews” Jerusalem insider to work exclusively with former slaves in setting up this ruse. If Paul is an important upper-crust local, his association with former slaves also makes little sense. Pulling off bearing false witness required a tremendous level of trust among a group. Any leak and the schemers themselves would face the punishment they were seeking for their victim (Deut. 19:16–21).

It makes much more sense if this synagogue of freedmen—many of whom were from Cilicia, the capital of which was Paul’s hometown Tarsus—were close friends and compatriots who saw the world as Paul did.

“Luke might assume that Paul belonged to this particular synagogue,” Riesner writes.

And so very possibly, Paul, the freed slave, is surrounded by freed slaves from his same region. He stands in the inner ring, leading these conspirators in the first Christian martyrdom. He then makes plans to pursue and destroy budding messianic communities across the Roman Empire.

First on the list? Damascus.

Of course, en route, Paul is confronted by a heavenly visitor, knocked down, and blinded for three days (Acts 9). The world has not been the same since.

Not only does the early church’s telling of Paul’s backstory better explain Paul, but it also better explains the way he talks.

We take it for granted that Paul writes the way he does. We take it as normal. But if the rest of the New Testament can serve as a guide, it’s not.

Everyone is formed by their background. Our vocabularies and mental toolboxes betray the evidence of our upbringing. And Paul is obsessed with the language of slavery. In his writings, he speaks constantly of it: Of bondage. Of freedom. Of adoption. Of shackles. Of exodus. Of citizenship. The two most common openings to Paul’s letters are “Paul, an apostle of Christ” and “Paul, a slave of Christ.”

Meanwhile, the entire rest of the New Testament rarely uses slavery language. Paul only wrote a quarter of the New Testament by word count, but simple word searches show that slavery themes occur disproportionately in Paul’s material.

And there are subtle references tucked among the more obvious ones. At the end of Galatians, for instance, Paul says, “From now on, let no one cause me trouble, for I bear on my body the marks of Jesus” (Gal. 6:17).

It’s easy to assume that Paul is referring to the scars he acquired through the many beatings he endured. The problem is, Galatians is likely Paul’s earliest letter, according to Wright. Pauline scholar Richard N. Longenecker also argued that Galatians was written very early in Paul’s ministry, “before the ‘Council’ at Jerusalem.”

Those whippings, beatings, and stonings—and their resulting scars—would come later. So what marks is Paul talking about?

There’s also something funny about his word choice.

There are many words in Greek for scar; you might choose any number of them before using the one Paul does here, the Greek word stigmata.

If you can will yourself to forget the later medieval Latin meaning of the word, stigmata in Paul’s day, according to Johannes Louw and Eugene Nida’s lexicon, meant “A permanent mark or scar on the body, especially the type of ‘brand’ used to mark ownership of slaves—‘scar, brand.’”

If Paul were born into a slave family, he would have had a brand pressed into his flesh to mark his owner. Paul is emancipated by the time we’re introduced to him, but the brand would have remained. And Paul, who’s a master at interpreting the old through the lens of the new in Christ, is able to reinterpret even this.

Paul’s identity is still that of a bondservant. Only now, he knows who his true master is. Paul, a slave of Christ.

These sorts of examples are not accidental. Slave analogies are the background scenery that fills Paul’s imagination.

In his book Reading While Black, Wheaton College professor Esau McCaulley recounts the story of Howard Thurman:

The story is often told of Howard Thurman’s experience of reading the Bible for his grandmother, a former slave. Rather than have him read the entire Bible, she omitted sections of Paul’s letters. At first he did not question this practice. Later he works up the courage to ask her why she avoids Paul:

“During the days of slavery,” she said, “the master’s minister would occasionally hold services for the slaves. Old man McGhee was so mean that he would not let a Negro minister preach to his slaves. Always the white minister used as his text something from Paul. At least three or four times a year he used as a text: ‘Slaves, be obedient to them that are your masters…as unto Christ.’ Then he would go on to show how it was God’s will that we were slaves and how, if we were good and happy slaves, God would bless us. I promised my Maker that if I ever learned to read and if freedom ever came, I would not read that part of the Bible.”

Many believers today struggle to read Paul because of this troubled legacy of interpretation. Throughout American history, many misread and then weaponized Paul against the oppressed. Some still do.

Though Christians would eventually come to end slavery in the Roman empire and lead the charge for abolition in the West, slave owners the world over also backed their ideology with the Bible—leaning especially on Paul’s words.

But Paul was neither a proponent of slavery nor an abolitionist, despite efforts to use his letter to Philemon to make him out as one or the other. In truth, neither option was available to him.

It’s difficult for modern readers to understand that in the Roman Empire of Paul’s time, abolitionist thought was virtually nonexistent. According to Jeffers, “No Greek or Roman author ever attacked slavery as an institution.”

It was a given that slavery would always exist. Alexis de Tocqueville wrote, “All available evidence suggests that even those ancients who were born slaves and later freed, several of whom have left us very beautiful texts, envisioned servitude in the same light.”

Instead, the first Christians had their minds almost exclusively fixed on the Second Coming, which they believed was imminent. There wasn’t time to reform entrenched Roman injustices.

And even if early Christians had harbored abolitionist ambitions, at the time of Paul’s ministry, Christians numbered fewer than 1 in 1,000 people in the Roman Empire. They were held in suspicion and persecuted. Their leaders were regularly executed—including, eventually, Paul. Christians had no voice. Not yet.

But make no mistake. If Paul could accomplish no great things, he could accomplish small things with great love. And those small things would turn the world upside down. “Paul’s revolution,” Scot McKnight writes in his commentary on Philemon, “is not at the level of the Roman Empire but at the level of the household, not at the level of the polis [city] but at the level of the ekklēsia [church].”

As British scholar F. F. Bruce put it in his biography of Paul, the Letter of Philemon “brings us into an atmosphere in which the institution [of slavery] could only wilt and die.”

It’s hard to imagine a time when bondservice was such a given that not a single writer of the era would directly challenge it. But perhaps more than any ancient writer, Paul salted the soil of slavery.

When we ignore the memory of the early church, we ignore that Paul was possibly the least likely person to condone slavery. His parents were slaves. He may have been one, too.

What if Onesimus knew this? The runaway bondservant may have traveled more than 1,000 miles to seek the help of a man he suspected would especially understand his predicament.

The apostle claims he is sending Onesimus back as if he were his own “heart” (Phm. 1:12). The word used here is not the customary Greek word kardia. Instead, Paul used the word splanchna, denoting one’s innermost feelings. Joseph Fitzmyer comments “Paul sees Christian Onesimus as part of himself.” The use of splanchna in this letter “shows how personally Paul was involved in the matter.” Why was Paul so personally involved? He knew what it was like to walk in Onesimus’s sandals.

When Paul entrusts his letter to Onesimus and sends him back to his master Philemon, the apostle both gently pleads and forcefully charges Philemon to receive Onesimus back “no longer as a slave, but better than a slave, as a dear brother” (v. 16).

Paul further tells him to welcome Onesimus back as if he were welcoming Paul himself. “If he has done you any wrong or owes you anything, charge it to me,” he says. “I, Paul, am writing this with my own hand. I will pay it back—not to mention that you owe me your very self” (v. 18–19). Just a few verses later, he not-so-subtly hints that once he gets out of prison, he’ll be swinging through to stay with Philemon. He will know whether Philemon did the right thing.

This is unheard of in the ancient world, to welcome a runaway slave as one would welcome one of the great leaders of a movement.

It’s this radical equality that made Christianity such a threat to the rulers. No contract, class, or caste could threaten the image of God on every human being. As Paul reminded bondservants and owners alike, they were equals before God. “You know that both of you have the same Master in heaven, and with him there is no partiality” (Eph. 6:9, NRSV).

Sadly, Paul was executed by the Roman emperor Nero before he could make it back to Colossae. Maybe we’ll never know what happened to Onesimus or how Philemon responded to that letter.

But it’s possible the outcome has been hiding in plain sight by the very fact that the letter survived.

Over the past century, scholars have concluded that the characters and stories included in the Bible are not chosen simply randomly or because they are compelling. As John reminds us, “Jesus did many other things as well. If every one of them were written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room for the books that would be written” (John 21:25).

According to Cambridge biblical scholar Richard Bauckham, the characters that made the cut did so because they were recognized by the early church.

The Gospels overwhelmingly include details of the figures who were still leading the church some 30 years into its existence. It’s one reason why Mary the mother of Jesus, who tradition holds lived on for decades in Ephesus, gets so much airtime in Scripture and her husband Joseph, who died early, has not a single word of dialogue. There is a kind of survivor bias in Scripture.

As influential as Stephen may have been, his story mostly serves to introduce the bigger story of Paul, who shapes the growing church for many years.

Peter’s betrayal and reconciliation to Jesus is one of the very few stories included in all four Gospels, very possibly because Peter was well known by the young Christian community and remained in it for decades, probably often recounting the tale.

Of the many personal communications from Paul that have probably been lost, why then was the letter to Philemon preserved? Why was this letter in particular kept, read publicly, copied by hand, and disseminated all over the known world?

Just as the Gospels seem to favor the stories of those still known in the Christian communities, and as Paul’s surviving personal letters were tied to leaders of large communities, we have strong reason to infer the same here. Philemon, Onesimus, or both may also have been well-known and influential in the early church.

We know from the letter that Philemon was part of a house church in Colossae, a minor city in modern-day Turkey. It’s doubtful that churches everywhere would have taken much interest in the origin story of a small house-church host who had to be admonished by Paul.

But in nearby Ephesus, the region’s capital city and one with a large Christian community, there is a story that would make the letter worthy of rescue. Of celebration.

Timothy was the first bishop of the churches of Ephesus. Early church historians record that he was martyred by the Roman emperor, just as his mentor Paul had been.

But before that, he had time to build a roster of pastors. One of Timothy’s pastors was known as a true shepherd of shepherds. A pastor of pastors. The kind who visited those in prison and cared for orphans and widows in their distress (James 1:27). He seemed to truly understand the plight of the marginalized, as if he himself had once been marginalized.

When it was time to choose a new bishop after Timothy’s martyrdom, church tradition and many modern scholars agree, there was an obvious choice. The Ephesian church chose the shepherd of shepherds.

This man served wonderfully for decades. And in his old age, he too was killed by Rome.

His name was Onesimus.

Mark R. Fairchild is a retired professor of Bible and religion at Huntington University and a Fulbright Scholar. His forthcoming book on Paul will release in 2025 with Hendrickson Publishers.

Jordan K. Monson is an author and professor of missions and Old Testament at Huntington University.

Ideas

Bible Figures Never Say ‘I’m Sorry’

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If they don’t “apologize” in the modern sense, it’s only because Scripture has a richer vocabulary of repentance.

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We need a theology of apology.

Apologizing sounds straightforward, at least in theory. You do something wrong (sin); you feel bad about it (regret); you admit it and accept responsibility (confession); you say sorry to the person or people you have wronged, including God (repentance); and you take appropriate steps to make things right (restitution).

Many apologies take exactly this form. But often they are more complicated. It is possible to apologize without admitting fault or feeling regret. It is possible to feel sorry for things not our fault, like when we learn that a friend has cancer. It is possible to apologize with no intention of making restitution.

And it is possible—as well as increasingly common—for institutions to apologize for things of which only some members are guilty. Matters get harder when it comes to the sins of our ancestors. Should we apologize for things that happened before we were born? Confess them? Repent of them? Make restitution for them?

When we turn to the Scriptures for help, we discover something surprising: Nobody in the Bible ever really “apologizes” or “says sorry” for something. The Greek word apologia denotes an answer or legal defense—hence our word apologetics—but it carries no hint of feeling bad about something or repenting for it.

Sorry, a more flexible word in English, does crop up on occasion; translators might use it to describe the pity Pharaoh’s daughter felt for Moses (Ex. 2:6) or the sadness Herod felt about cutting off John the Baptist’s head (Matt. 14:9, ESV). But these are expressions of pity or sorrow, not apology or repentance.

It might sound, then, like the Bible offers few resources for crafting a theology of apology. In many ways, however, the opposite is true. Instead of using somewhat vague words like sorry and apologize, the New Testament distinguishes between three different but overlapping responses to our sin—and this can help us unbundle what is happening when individuals or institutions “apologize.”

The first word, lupeō, means feeling grief, sorrow, or pain. This is an appropriate response to sin, and it is often the first step, as when the Corinthians are “grieved” into repentance (2 Cor. 7:9, ESV). It does not necessarily imply an acceptance of blame, though. Herod feels bad about beheading John, but he does it anyway. It is not the disciples’ fault that Jesus will be crucified, but they are “filled with grief” nonetheless (Matt. 17:23).

This is quite distinct from homologeō or exomologeō, which both refer to confessing, admitting, or acknowledging something. People “confessed” their wickedness at the preaching of John the Baptist and Paul (Matt. 3:6; Acts 19:18). John reassures his readers, “If we confess our sins, [God] is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9). This is clearly different from grief or regret. It involves owning our failure, taking responsibility for it, and asking for forgiveness.

Then there is the wonderfully rich word metanoeō, which conveys a pattern of repenting, turning around, and changing your mind and life accordingly. It is easy to feel grief or regret over our mistakes. Plenty of us are even happy to admit and confess them, especially the culturally acceptable ones. But Christ calls us to something more: a U-turn, a total reversal of direction and allegiance, a death to self and a new life in him, with all the transformation of behavior that comes with it.

If this turning does not produce good fruit, then it is not real repentance (Matt. 3:8; 7:16–20). But if it changes our lives—even to the point of making restitution to all those we have wronged—then salvation has come to our house today (Luke 19:8–10).

Grief, confession, and repentance are distinct entities. Yet when we see the reality and horror of our sin and the grace of the God who offers forgiveness, we find ourselves practicing all three.

Following the example of Nehemiah, we grieve and mourn (Neh. 1:4). Then we confess and admit (vv. 6–7). Then we return and obey (vv. 8–9). Depending on the context, we may identify with the sins of our ancestors to the extent that we share in them ourselves. And we end by appealing to God’s mercy, trusting that he who has called and redeemed us will hear our prayer (vv. 10–11).

Andrew Wilson is teaching pastor at King’s Church London and the author of Remaking the World.

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Testimony

I Cried Out to the Name Demons Fear Most

How Jesus rescued a New Age psychic from spiritual darkness.

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I grew up on Long Island, New York, as part of an Italian and culturally Catholic family. Christmas for me was mainly about Santa Claus, antipasto, and pretty lights on houses. I had no faith in Jesus Christ whatsoever, and attending church wasn’t usually on the agenda.

Even at a very young age, I was aware of the spiritual realm. At home, there was lots of conversation about ghosts—how they would play with the lights and knock things off the shelves. My sister told me about the time her pals got together and used an Ouija board, assuming it was an innocent game. The girls asked the board who among them would die first, and they got an answer. Not long after, the girl in question died of suicide.

I was only 12 when I started receiving what felt like psychic attacks. I had two dreams that included predictions about events that ended up happening. These premonitions were nothing profound, but they were certainly very creepy.

The door to demons was thrown wide open when, at age 13, I had my first experience with tarot cards: a private 15-minute session with an (allegedly) expert reader and her cardboard cards, full of weird pictures. The reading left me intrigued. I didn’t understand how a perfect stranger could know so much about me. I began seeking out more readings and eventually getting my own tarot cards.

My sister and I started performing tarot readings for each other. It was so addictive, like eating potato chips. Throughout my teens, I delved into other divination tools like numerology charts, astrology charts, angel cards, and runes.

But the further I went down that road, the more it seemed demons were surrounding me. At the time, I wouldn’t have known to call them demons, but I experienced so many moments of fear. I felt them touching me, and I could see them manifesting as shadowy figures, animals, and what looked like human beings.

One day, I was sitting at my kitchen table with my head resting down on my arms. I looked up, and standing in the entrance to my bedroom was a demon masquerading as a man, tall and lean. He stood there briefly, giving a dauntingly cold stare, and then he was gone. Another day I was thrown off a chair while sitting in my family’s computer room. My dad was in the next room, and he heard the thump.

At this point, I was getting and giving tarot readings on a regular basis. Often, when I encountered people, I would just receive information about them (from nowhere in particular) and then ask to share it. They were amazed at what I knew, and I was amazed at my “power.”

In my early 20s, I had my first apparent communication with a dead person. In a dream one night, a young man with blond hair let me know that he died in a car accident. At the time, I was a single mother, and my daughter’s dad would visit her twice a week. Somehow, I knew that the man from the dream was connected with my ex’s new girlfriend in some way.

When I told my ex about this dream, he was equally perplexed and decided to mention it to his girlfriend. A week later, he told me that she understood the dream perfectly; she knew the young man and could verify all the details I had given. He then asked if I knew the young man’s name, and we were both floored when I stated it right away.

After this, I went to visit a psychic medium. She told me that I too was a medium and that my gifts came from God for the purpose of helping people connect with departed loved ones. I left the office with a business card of a divination group leader, and I called as soon as I arrived home. The group exposed me to guided meditations and false tools of protection against darkness, like burning white sage and imagining white light around myself.

Meanwhile, my own tarot readings were gaining popularity. I gave them at local coffee shops or at home in the basement. I also started doing group readings at other people’s homes, either collectively or through a series of private 15-minute sessions.

Often, while driving home from psychic readings, I would see familiar spirits in my rearview mirror and on the highway. One night, while doing an individual reading, I had an alarming experience. I started “channeling” for information about the woman before me, and the demon I channeled was pretending to be her uncle who had shot her and her brother when they were kids. I felt sick, and this woman looked at me with daggers in her eyes, as if I were the uncle myself.

Eventually, I started my own divination group. I taught a variety of New Age techniques like chakra balancing, tarot reading, psychic mediumship, meditation, smudging, and past-life automatic writings. I had my students make vision boards to visualize what they were manifesting.

I loved the thought of helping clients attain the desires of their heart and communicate with their loved ones. But I lived in constant fear of bad spirits and what they would do to me. In my mid-30s, at a moment of especially intense fear, I suddenly cried out the name of Jesus Christ. Not my spirit guide or a deceased person or an angel—Jesus!

I didn’t know why this name came to my lips. But almost immediately, to use biblical language, I felt a peace that surpasses all understanding (Phil. 4:7). This began my journey to full Christian faith. I didn’t know I was a sinner in need of a Savior. And I had no idea what the gospel was. But I knew I didn’t want to be a psychic anymore.

I stopped giving psychic medium readings for a while but then started again. Things really changed ten months after the moment I cried out to Jesus, when I invited a good friend over for dinner. We had met years prior in a divination group and grown close. But I hadn’t seen her in a while, and I was shocked when she started talking about Jesus and a church she was attending. She invited me to come, but I politely declined.

Four weeks later, on a Sunday morning, I woke up with a strong desire to go to that church. So I went, curious to know what a Bible-based church was actually like.

I was singing along with the worship music when the lyrics Jesus saved me flashed on the screen, instantly transporting me back to the moment I had cried out to Jesus Christ. I started crying with joy, because I knew in my heart that he saved me.

When I got home, the Holy Spirit immediately called my attention to the Word of God. I needed to know what the Bible said about my profession.

I didn’t have a Bible on hand, so I asked Google, “What does the Bible say about psychic mediums?” And I was shocked to find verses answering this question throughout God’s Word—verses like Deuteronomy 18:9–13, which condemn anyone who “practices divination or sorcery, interprets omens, engages in witchcraft, or casts spells, or … consults the dead.” Since Jesus had saved me, I would have to pick up my cross and follow him, even at the cost of quitting my job.

In the ten years since, Jesus has changed my heart and my life as only he can. I am no longer caught in the hamster wheel of New Age techniques, endlessly seeking peace, joy, and fulfillment without finding them.

Today, I continue to share the gospel whenever I can, in part by devoting myself to exposing the demonic darkness I served for many years and warning others against following the same path. Through God’s grace, those years are not wasted, and I can use my cautionary tale to serve him and his kingdom.

Jennifer Nizza is a speaker and Christian content creator living on Long Island, New York. She is the author of From Psychic to Saved.

News

Pakistani Christians Accused of Blasphemy Found Not Guilty

And other brief news from believers around the world.

A Christian woman weeps after looking at her home vandalized by an angry Muslim mob in Pakistan.

A Christian woman weeps after looking at her home vandalized by an angry Muslim mob in Pakistan.

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Two Christian brothers have been acquitted of charges of blasphemy. Umar and Umair Saleem, known as “Rocky” and “Raja,” respectively, were accused by other Christians of defiling the Quran and making derogatory remarks about Muhammad, “deliberate and malicious acts intended to outrage religious feelings.” The accusations were announced over mosque loudspeakers and sparked anger in the northeastern town of Jaranwala. Mobs attacked dozens of Christian homes and about 20 churches. A police investigation, however, found nothing to substantiate the charges, and the two were released in March 2024. The brothers’ lawyer said they were framed by fellow believers because of “personal enmity.” The Saleems do not believe it is safe to go home.

India: Jonah translated into sign language

The Book of Jonah has been translated into sign language in Nagaland, a state in India with a distinct sign language and more than 100,000 hearing-impaired people. “We are sowing a seed for the Deaf community,” Bible Society of India director W. Along Jamir said, “and this reminds us of God’s faithfulness.”

Korea: Pastor abused teenage defectors

An evangelical pastor once hailed as a hero for helping people escape North Korea has been sentenced to five years in prison for sexually abusing teenagers. Chun Ki-won, 67, claims to have helped more than 1,000 defectors get out of the authoritarian state, with the goal of sharing the gospel, sending converts back, and seeing God’s grace “sweep over the starving, exhausted land of North Korea.” Chun’s work was praised by the BBC, CNN, The New York Times, and National Geographic. According to a South Korean court, however, there was “irrefutable” evidence that Chun harmed five students at a boarding school.

Armenia: Baptist going to prison for rejecting military

A criminal court rejected the appeal of a 20-year-old Baptist man sentenced to prison for refusing military service. Davit Nazaretyan says his faith prohibits him from fighting because Jesus taught his followers to “love one another, even our enemies, and not kill people.” However, an Armenian Orthodox bishop testified the young man’s religious beliefs “would not be restricted by military service,” and the court chose to believe him. Nazaretyan faces two years in prison.

Iran: Christians arrested more in summer

More than 160 Christians were arrested in Iran in 2023. According to a report from four groups defending freedom of religion and helping persecuted Christians, the arrests increased dramatically in summer months, when authorities were worried about public protests.

Kenya: Evangelical Alliance supports Israeli olive oil

The Evangelical Alliance of Kenya is protesting a grocery store chain’s decision to stop stocking olive oil imported from Israel. A letter from the evangelical group said Carrefour’s decision not to stock olive oil interferes with the religious rights of shoppers and needlessly politicizes grocery shopping. Some younger Kenyans have been boycotting Israeli businesses and products, arguing the Jewish state is committing war crimes in Gaza. The evangelical group has called for a ceasefire in the Israel-Hamas conflict but nonetheless opposes corporate pressure on Israeli businesses.

Nigeria: Catholics warned of Pentecostal “invasion”

An ordained scholar told a council of bishops that the Catholic church should worry less about blessings of same-sex couples and more about Pentecostal growth in Nigeria. Anthony Akinwale, a professor in Lagos, told the church leaders that “our Catholic space has been invaded.”

Northern Ireland: Study finds many evangelicals

Twenty-one percent of people identify as practicing evangelical Christians in Northern Ireland, according to a new sociological survey, including nearly half of all Protestants and more than one-third of Catholics. Thirty-five percent of those ages 18 to 24 identify with the term.

Argentina: Soup kitchens get government funding

The new libertarian government is partnering with the Christian Alliance of Evangelical Churches of Argentina to fund 723 soup kitchens that feed an estimated 36,000 people, giving Christians 177 million Argentine pesos (roughly $200,000 USD) to purchase food. President Javier Milei, who describes himself as an anarcho-capitalist, was elected in December 2023. He passed monetary reforms that devalued the peso by more than 50 percent and cut spending on subsidies and welfare programs, including funds for soup kitchens, before directing some money to church groups. Hugo Márquez, a pastor with the evangelical alliance, said the partnership does not signal “political agreement,” despite the “lying fantasy of the progressive groups.”

United States: Landmark tower restored

An Independent Christian Church in Columbus, Indiana, has completed a $3.2 million renovation of its iconic 166-foot tower. The 1942 Stone-Campbell church is considered a landmark of Modernist architecture and is one of the first constructed in the style in the US. Architect Eliel Saarinen, whose work inspired many skyscrapers built in Chicago, believed the popular Gothic- and Georgian-style churches of his time were indulgent and overly theatrical and couldn’t address contemporary spiritual needs.

Starting last year, construction workers stabilized the top of the tower, repaired miles of cracks, fixed water damage, installed a powerful new ventilation system, put up a limestone lintel, replaced thousands of spalled bricks, and restored the church clock.

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